Surgery successful! I am tired!

I am SO exhausted already! I knew it was no fun spending the night in a hospital with someone but I had forgotten just what it was like. My mom came through the surgery ok and she is going to be fine. I am so relieved now! At least one more thing off of my shoulders.
I did a lot of thinking last night and I have SO many thoughts to share in here BUT I don't have any time now. I am off to the hospital for another night of it. Hopefully, she will be released tomorrow. Off I go!

First Entry, my mom, death

Well, my first entry. I am about to leave to be with my mom for her surgery. My stepdad with be there, too. My brother is at work but close in heart. This is the closest the 3 of us have been in my life. I am worried for obvious reasons but I know it will be alright either way. I know my mom is scared deep inside as most of us would be. She wants this taken care of and over with and has the brave front up. I have that from her. It is why I am going to be with her all that I can. Because I know she really wants someone there. I feel it will all be ok but, even if it is not, it will still be ok.
What is this life for anyway? To find and give peace and love no matter where you turn. At least, that is one thought I have now. :-) Death, which I began to fear so much when Steve died in college seems to be making some sense to me as I get older. Maybe that is the way it is supposed to be if we do it right.